loner

Somebody told me that I'm not sociable.
I'm not sociable but I enjoy being around with certain kind of people. I'm complicated that way. I'm not unsocial. It's hard to show it to people mainly because I'm too shy sometimes, I'm too sensitive for little things. It's a way of protecting myself. Stupid. Maybe.

Everyone says everyone is different. But it seems like not being social is regarded as some sort of problem. It seems like a flaw in personality.

I may have missed many chances in many occasions because of that.
I can tell people who are like me. I can tell people who are sensitive in that way. And I know how to not hurt them.
I was the only kid and I have never said I was lonely to anybody. I listen to people but I rarely talk about my loneliness to them, because I have never realized I was lonely. I've always said to myself, "I'm ok."
I don't blame people who judge me as unsocial. I don't want to try to make them understand I'm not. But,, it hurts.

It hurts.

Miscommunication and misunderstanding have been big part of my life so far.